In a search for positive strategies I came across the above blog post. I really hope this Jon Gordon guy isn't a weirdo because the post made a lot of sense, here's my attempt to spend some time today explaining what I'm thankful for. I still feel a little silly about all of this, but I understand that changing your way of thinking isn't easy and sometimes it will feel awkward. The reward will be worth it.
I'm grateful for the way the sun felt yesterday while I was sitting in my car waiting for my little brother to finish up his dance class, for having a brother and siblings who may drive me crazy, but who I ultimately feel more comfortable with than most other people on the planet. For having friends that feel like family, while there may not be many, I do have the most incredible friends. I'm grateful for eating cheeseburgers with my Mom and for the fact that she always tips our servers really well. I'm grateful for having had such a great waitress yesterday, who joked and smiled when my Mom handed her more money, who felt like such a genuine person instead of how I have felt in her shoes waiting tables. For seeing that it is possible to be happy at work even when you have to deal with the public, for the fact that the public isn't all bad.
I'm thankful to have friends who have similar interests to the weird ones that I myself have, I'm so happy to be able to watch weird documentaries and awkward shows and read books that maybe shouldn't be read in public, and to have real physical ears to not only listen but enjoy and even take part in the things that I enjoy.
I'm thankful to have such an incredible boyfriend who has done so much for me regardless of how negative I have been lately. For having someone who makes me want to keep going and make things better. For inspiring me to think more positively. to make a change for a better future. I'm thankful for his voice, for the way his lips feel on mine, and for the way he thinks, I'm thankful for our conversations, for every single thing he's ever done to show me he's on my team, for his capacity for forgiveness, his genuine care for the people he loves, and for showing me exactly what there is to lose if things don't get better. (Hang on, I'll fix it)
I'm grateful to wake up with friends and for my landlord roasting nuts on the fire on the deck over my head, I'm thankful for the fact that they shared, that they heard I was upset and reached out. I'm thankful for humans, for my neighbors even when they upset me, for the cars that cut me off in traffic because now each little thing will be an exercise in positive actions, and an opportunity to practice starving the negative dog.
